michelle died in my dreams.
i had a very blurry dream when i woke up today, and i hadn't remembered it until recently.
michelle, my ex, passed away. i saw a notification on my phone. her death was dated at 4/44/26, an impossible date. (i tried to reason the date and it could be: 4/22 or 2/22 - the latter being our anniversary.)
the dream also vaguely alluded it was a suicide, or at least thats what i thought in my dream. guilt rushed throughout my body.
it was weird, i hadn't thought about michelle in any meaningful way - or at least one that would leave me in a sad rut. if would happen to anyone, it would be lilly (i guess that also makes sense in hind sight.)
i dont want to linger on it too much, izzy told me to stop thinking about it, so ill stop.
i think this is my brains way of telling me i should stop thinking about her - about them. it wasnt really clear who passed, and im happy i thought of michelle instead of lilly. not because i want her to pass, but because that means im getting over it, you know.
anyways, its not good to mull over these sorts of things. theyre okay, im okay, were all okay!